Confused feelings..

Happy, sad and scared.
Which is my real feeling ?
Humph....
Dont know...
Happy as I am open minded :D
Sad for some sad reason.
Scared for some unknown future.

Friends in school, try to talk to me more :D
I wanna talk and dont wanna think about the unknown future.

Today,
I was singing happily together with Miriam.
We used the Popeye and jingle bell song and we change the lyrics :D
It was quite fun.. :D
I laughed very happily..
Probably the happiest laugh today.
We used some of our friends name in the lyrics..
And when I am laughing as happy as I can today, my friend scolded us.
She said :

Maybe you feel funny or nice to sing other people's name. But that people may not like it. You can sing your own name but dont do that to other people.

She is just angry because me and Miriam used her name.
After she scolded us, Miriam really tried singing with our name in the lyrics.
But we didn't feel anything also...
We are just playing... So serious for what ?
Then I told Miriam

This is the reason why I dont like to be friends with serious people. You know what I mean ? Those that we cannot play or joke with.

Then she answered

Ya I know. Me too. *high 5*

My feeling then from very happy dropped to sad.
Dont have the feeling to laugh and redo the lyrics.
Feeling very down that time.

Miriam went to learn how to do tricks on the calculator, I was alone that time.
Still sad. Still down.
Tears almost came out from my eyes.
And when Miriam is here, I asked her to talk to me, but she didn't want to.
So I kept quiet for the last period of school.
And when I came home my feelings went better !! :D
And after an afternoon nap feelings back to normal..:D

Why sad ?
I dont know.
Just my feelings went down suddenly because of the scolding.

Extra:
To Miriam and Lye Jen.
Know it.
Please keep it as a secret.
Know what am I talking ?
Just dont tell others :D

Event:
Obedience trial competition is this sunday !!
Busy training Colie last week and the results is...
He does heel after he explore the field or house very goodly.
Never do good at field maybe because he wanted to wonder around.

Just afraid that he cant do well in the walk.
Maybe...
Suddenly poop infront of others !! :D
Maybe ooo....
LOL.. Hope that never happen :D
Excited :D